Reality or Fantasy???

Sometimes i wonder whether this is reality or fantasy...

Yup when i watched, we go married the Woojung Couple, it makes me wonder whether that are in love or not...the way the look at each other..Oh my God!!! I wish they are together for real...My friends always laugh at me..saying i'm to fanatic about this whole korean variety show...Yup, i admit, i'm crazy bout it..every week i'm wait and wait to see the episode online coz' this is all i have for my entertainment beside my study...

Hey, this is the way i am...By watching that, it give a lot of thought how to choose a better partner in your life...Mine?? Guess what?? It's SECRET!!!

Back to December

The last time we ran to each other is last two years on December...

Still remember clearly..the way you look, with your stripes clothes n black tie making you even more smarter than before...When you walked, you just passed through me making me wonder will you ever look back...

Damn...you never look..never ever...so i let it go....I lett

ing you go...but I still remember last December, you texted me...I'm so glad, I smiled, You said I'm forgotten about your birthday,

Hey!! I never forget..never in my life...but I'm sorry I didn't called coz' thinkin' you might be busy with your new life...

Now, I will face December again...thinking bout you...I

really miss your sweet smile and the way you look at me as if I'm special...but again thinking that I've let you go...

I just don't deserve it...to ask you to remember me and thinking of me....

So, this is me swallowing my pride..calling you saying how much I miss you and sorry for everything and

~GOODBYE~

14 Februari

dear blogger,

ini bukan sbb valentine...not at all!!!! ini sbbkan memori aku n prince V...yaahhh..i know i said i will forget bout him...tp bla trikh ini dtg..every year..ak akn tringatkan dia...teringatkan memori km bdua pd 14 Februari...hati ni tmbah sdih bla msuk dlm kmpus....lalu jalan yg pnah km bdua lalu...mlihat tmpat yg km pnah duduk, berbual2 ketika hari tu....hatiku lg pdih...

and guess what..lately ak mengagahkan diri ini utk bka profile fb dia...tnyata dia mkin berbeza..serius beza sgt2...dia bkn someone yg kukenal dulu....dia dh lain....yeah...the last time ak try msej ngan dia is last year...tba2 hati ni trasa nk msej dia..dia bls ckp mcm2 kta ak sombong la, xnak kwn ngan dia la...tp dia xtau sbb ak buat mcm ni...sbb ak jauhkan diri drpd dia....dia tak tau....n ak rsa dia pun xnk amik pduli....

hakikatnya...ak xpnah da dlm minda dan hatinya...tp dia sntiasa da di hatiku....memori 14 februari xkan pnah pudar dlm igtan ku....

kenapala jadi mcm ni??

dear blogger,

lma xaku mluahkan perasaan ini kt blog yg tercinta..he3..sbb xda story ler..

tp ari ni da...bnda ni tjadi kelmarin...aku jumpa dia kt jln....my ex-senior...hu3..tp tkdir mmisahkan km dengan jarak...lgpun dia da ngan kwn dia...ak sgan la nk sapa dia...so i let it go...tp di sdut hati aku tringin sgt nk ckp n tgur dia...seriously!!!!

alhamdulillah...hajat ak tercapai..during break time, ak gi tndas...kuar2 aja..ak tersermpak dia kt tngga...jntung ak bgai terhenti sketika...Ya Allah, ni la peluang aku...tnpa segan silu..ak trus tgur dia...tnyata dia msih igtkan ak...he3...(berbunga skit hati ni) tba2 ak tringat pesan cousin ak "Bella, dia dgn kta dah berbeza..lain sgt2...igt tu" kata2 ni mmbuat kan perbualan km menjadi janggal...tp hati dan mlut ak ttp xblh berubah...ak ttp pnggil dia abang....instead of encik...(maafkan bella...) ak tau dari sudut hati dia, dia xnk km rasa janggal ngan dia..tp keadaan dan takdir dh trtulis yg kami berbeza...

kenapalah jadi mcm ini??? Ya Allah..tak baik ak slhkan takdir ni...astagfirllahal'azim...

mungkin rmai rkan2 aku xmngerti, mereka hanya ketawakan ak sj bla dgr cerita ni..tp biarlah perasaan hatiku ini, hanya ak dan Allah sja yg tahu....

insya allah..next time kita jumpa...i will call you encik....i try my best...

We Got Married

dear blogger,

lma xtulis kt blog ni..he3..recently i have another addiction...i'm really love the korean reality show called we got married...i know..rmai akn jawb..elooo...cite ni dh lma thun lpas lgi..dh basi...watsoevva!!ada ak kisah???? i just fall in love with yongseo couple...they are so cute..hopefully they really have feelings for each other...

p/s: really worry bout the news in mesir..hope najmi akn survive di sana...Ya Allah lindungilah rakanku drpd segala marabahaya....

Sejuta Cinta

dear blogger,

recently, i watched a new sinetron called Sejuta Cinta Marshanda..what can i said bout it, enak bangat but...so sad, episod ptama dh wat orang nangis dtambah pula dengan OST nya yg sayu kalu kita dengar...waduh2...pusing pala ni...

he3...actually, bila tgk drama tu, rmind me of someone...mmm...ntahlah, i seriously dunno bout it...

did i tell you guys that my seriously old, old and OLD CrusH dh blik!!!!!!!!!!! damn...he's becoming a lecturer at our fac...seriously stakat ni, tak pnah bertembung lagi....kt fac..kalu jmpa how should i address him....mmm i wonder???


p/s: dh jmpa white roses dlm kmpus, tp mampost jrg nmpak ek??

korea fever!!!

dear blogger,

if everyone is crazy bout biebier fever...or watsoeva...i'm having korea fever right now!!!

can't handle it....igt korea fever ni dh abis tp sjak cuti sem bru2 ni, dia mai blik....waduh2....i'm so addicted to it rite now!!! xleh nk wat per...skrang i'm so in love with SiWon from Suju and the cast of he's beautiful....lovin it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!